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Breakfast (Chairs Cooked)
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Own Time
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Lunch
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Own Time
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Dinner
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Farewell Party
It’s the last day already.
Amazingly it’s been such a fast eleven
days, too fast, and now that I’m leaving
it feels like this whole trip is so super short. Eleven days compared to the 6
days during recce… Omg.
Spent a lot more time with
the children today. Wrote letters with J and spent the whole time after lunch
playing with the kids andden hatam bola-ing :P after that we went to watch the
guys play football for a bit. Dinner was wonderful with
watermelon and pineapples (:
After dinner, we had
preparations for the farewell party and we took team nerd specs photos! :D
hohoho. Videocammed a bit until the
party started.
We sang devotion songs,
read the bible (linda read in bahasa indon while I read in English), then had
some songs from the children and a short skit by them about their daily lives
without us. We then went up to dance that thing you do and sang when you say
nothing at all and I’m yours & qing fei de yi. Then was some farewell
speeches then our usual farewell handshakes and hugs and best wishes. Omg.
You know, this time, I
didn’t cry again. It’s the same reason, the fact that I’m leaving hasn’t
settled done in my mind yet. But seeing desi, mei, Charles, and even merfon
crying really made me heartbroken. Especially merfon who cried more this time
as compared to last year. Sigh. All changtai’s fault. But I’ve got to give him
credit for bringing so much joy to the kids even though they got too
emotionally attached to him. Double edged sword, really. Now I just hope that
he’ll be back to continue spreading his love.
Thinking back of the past
eleven days, I always felt that even though we were all so busy and tired there
was still so much more that could have been done. But yet at the same time, I
can’t convince myself that we could do more without sacrificing something else.
Like this time though we did a lot more, I felt that as a result we spent less
time with the children. Sigh.
I’m really glad to be here
again, because every time I’m here all my expectations are met and everything
never fails to disappoint me. Just that every time I come with different people
and hence there’s something different every trip. And it’s really heartbreaking
to see the children I’ve been spending so much time with in the past abandoning
me for someone else. It’s just so heartwrenching. Like this time CT just took
erni and merfon away from me. As much as I joke about it, I’m actually
pretty seriously heartbroken. Sigh.
I’ve accepted the fact that
I cant have the best of both worlds. As much as I want to stay here I want to
go back home as well. If only I could spend more time here with the children,
or even bring all of them home with me. And upon knowing that some other older
kids will be gone real soon, it just makes everything even more heartbreaking.
Like kurniaman, seruwan, and yusoff, perhaps there’ll no longer be any chance
for us to ever meet again. The reality of life.
Tomorrow’s going to be bad.
So I guess I’m going to sleep early tonight to prep myself a bit. And remove
all those emo thoughts in my head, all those unneeded jealousy and
disappointments.
And then it’ll be the third
separation for me. And this time, I can’t tell when I’ll say hello again.
Goodbye Nias, I hope I can
come back soon.
+ guaishou's! :D
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