20%

that's the probability of something happening, imo. don't ask me why, the number just struck me.

had a few intelligent conversations today! :D PAP & their policies with sis and bro-in-law, and then about christianity, horoscopes and prophet muhammad with justin. i love such debates and exchange of ideas because i really learn so much from them and it humbles me from the knowledge of how little i actually know about many things.

visiting sis was an awesome decision :D got many many things for nz and also had a great time catching up! :) loves my sis v much! actually, i really love my family. though i don't really express it to them directly (actually my whole family doesn't) i really appreciate their mere existence in my life. :) my parents have always cared for me selflessly, while my sis and bro has always been giving generously when it comes to me. we have had bad times, but in the end i know how much they love me and i hope they too know how much i love them! :D

anyway it's good that i'm thinking less now, after so many days have passed. the constant self reminders of the importance of being in control of my own emotions have taken effect and the many distractions and numerous events have proven to be very useful in taking things away from the mind as well :) i really think what doesn't kill makes you stronger.

and it's funny how i believe in getting what you want through the declaration of faith but yet when it comes to this i can't bring myself to declare it. too little confidence? maybe. but the little evidences of the past just made me feel this way, and i can't help it. the only and best thing i can do now is to simply leave it to Him. if it's to be, He'll make a way. and if it's not, then i know there's probably a better plan for me sometime later.

being very random here. but it's good to straighten thoughts once in a while. and there's so much i wanna learn!

p.s. i think i should start reading up on different religions of the world.

+ guaishou's! :D